American Idol (Part 2)
American Idol (Part 2)
We stayed in a beautiful 5-star hotel resort and honestly, those first few days quarantining together were so relaxing, between lounging in our hotel robes and having meals brought to our hotel room door, we truly felt blessed and also very pampered! When audition day finally came around, I was so nervous, yet I was super excited! It was a long day of filming, interviews, and a lot of waiting around before it was my turn to audition finally. I auditioned in front of Katy Perry, Luke Bryan, and Lionel Richie and was over the moon to receive a Golden ticket to Hollywood, which I still have hidden in my guitar case!
The first two days of quarantining in my hotel room by myself were very lonely and isolating, it made me question a lot of things, especially my participation in the show and if this was something I truly even wanted…
Another huge desire that God had placed on my heart at that time too, was the desire to become a mother, which in truth for as much as I was beginning to deeply desire this, it also scared me, especially as I was always led to believe a music career and children could not coexist in a whole and healthy way. From a young age, I was also highly encouraged to focus on my career and think about children when I was finally financially free and had my career over me. Needless to say, I found out that this was not the way God operated, He didn’t want me to try to control and worry about all the details of how all these things would happen, that was his concern.
With love,
Colm & Caitriona
KIRWAN the band
American Idol (Part 1)
American Idol (Part One)
Recently we shared a quick little picture of Caitriona auditioning for American Idol. A lot of people have been asking about this and so we wanted to share a little more of that story with you, a story that yet again we can see God’s fingerprints all over! We’ll let Caitriona take it from here…
It's true, I auditioned for American Idol! I know right? Kinda Cool! What’s even cooler to me is how God used this whole experience to answer some big prayers that both Colm and I had been praying at that time!
Whats even more mind-blowing, is that it was right before this opportunity even came about that Colm and I had been praying a lot about the possibility of moving back to America. Both of our hearts were feeling called back to Music City, yet it felt like an impossible thing, especially as all travel worldwide was still totally shut down. Still, we continued to pray that if this was something God truly wanted for us he would make it happen! After all, with God, there is nothing that is impossible! Could American Idol be the thing that would bring us back to the USA?
With love,
Colm & Caitriona
KIRWAN the band
‘Your Heart Is My Home’
So here’s a little secret no-one knows yet, ‘Your Heart Is My Home’ is track number 2 on our record we are soon to release, EXCITING!! It’s one of our favorite tracks on the record and how this song came to be follows perfectly from where Colm left off.
It all caused me much distress at the time as it truly felt like I had to choose between Colm and my family. So much so that I broke up with Colm, well for about 4 hours I did. It’s actually quite a funny story now.
He then went on to say “no, we can’t be friends” this absolutely both broke my heart and made me really angry, he explained that he wasn’t looking for another friend especially now that we had dated some, it would just be too complicated. The whole conversation was devastating!
I knew I had made the biggest mistake of my life, had I ruined it all? When I eventually arrived home, in an absolute mess, I called Colm who had been lying on his mums sofa jet lagged, in shock, and broken hearted.
Later that morning a calm came over me and I too had total clarity, Colm was the one, I knew it deep in my heart, and I knew I wanted to spend the rest of my life with him. I plucked up the courage and called him to tell him how I truly felt, I was terrified I had ruined it all and that he wouldn’t take me back.
Humbly, he did, Colm was relieved to hear my voice and to hear how I truly felt, I too was relieved to hear he still felt the same way about me, and I was blown away by the pink and red roses story. October 1st is also the feast day of St Therese of Lisieux. Pretty Crazy!
After Colm and I got back together I wrote “Your Heart Is My Home.” You see it took for me to experience the pain and thought of loosing Colm that day to realize that I never wanted to be without him ever again and that in fact wherever Colm is, that’s where my home is, his heart is my home. When I finally fully surrendered to this truth, there was no turning back, I was all in, Colm was too, we had our clarity and we knew we wanted to be married Mr and Mrs Kirwan.
With love,
Colm & Caitriona
KIRWAN the band
Love at first sight?
Was it love at first sight you ask? Well, no not quite, but beautifully in some ways, yes. Life is full of both ands, isn’t it?
Put that many Irish people together and it doesn’t take long for a bit of banter and craic to kick off. After plenty of chit chat, during that very long extended break, I eventually had to hop back on stage. Caitriona’s Dad in passing suggested she and I get together to write sometime but as they were all about to return to Ireland it would have to be the next year, of course I wholeheartedly agreed.
Mostly because at this time I was actually in a relationship with someone else and adding on top of that a few thousand miles of distance between us, neither of us were looking for anything other than a possible cowrite, and in a town like Nashville possible cowrites happen every day and never come to fruition, it’s sadly just something people say, '‘we should get together and write sometime.”
God is so good though, some months later we both admitted to eachother that neither of us forgot that night, we both had an overwhelming, strong, warm, comforting sense of ‘Home’ about each other, the Holy Spirit was quietly at work, planting seeds. Home.
It was evening when the song was finished that day so I offered to cook Caitriona dinner, (Caitriona would tell me later that food is her love language, I guess I did ok!) she still remembers that meal, oven baked salmon with garlic roasted brussel sprouts and roasted honey glazed carrots.
It was a short music city trip for Caitriona this time, but memorable, when returning to Ireland we stayed in touch. Slowly but surely a friendship deepened and many a long text message exchanged via WhatsApp, and then in time frequent FaceTime calls. Looking back it was a beautiful time of getting to know each other, also as songwriters we shared songs that we had written past and present, both secretly having favorites but not brave enough yet to tell the other. It was beautiful, pure and innocent, it was blessed.
It’s funny looking back, now knowing what we know, everything would be ok, but the truth is we didn’t know back then we just trusted that God was in the details. We had to give our daily yes.
With love,
Colm & Caitriona
KIRWAN the band
Kirwan’s first.
Hey! We are KIRWAN the band and for the longest time we’ve wanted to start a blog.
Much Love,
KIRWAN the band <3